Barely two weeks after he committed suicide, United States of America-based Nigerian entrepreneur, Izuchukwu Madubueze (aka Izu), have been identified in a new video where he stated his reasons for the action.
Izu’s name had been included in a list of over 100 people described as sexual abusers by social media influencer, Nanichi Anese
Efforts by the 23-year-old creative designer to get the details of the allegations against him from Anese, were rebuffed.
Izu, who graduated from the University of South Florida, became depressed as friends queried him on the allegation and broke the news of his suicide on Twitter on July 17, using an app that allows one to schedule his tweets.
In a new 8 minutes 36 seconds video which went viral earlier this week, the deceased, who wore a red jacket, apologised to his family members and friends, as he read his suicide notes.
He said, “Thursday, July 16, 2020. I feel like saying some last words before I leave. In the last couple of weeks I have seen tweets. I have heard from several people. I have also seen some people who I expected a lot more from stop tweeting me and I wasn’t ever given a fair chance to clear my name or explain my own side of the story or verify whether any of the allegations against me were true or not.
“To my family, first of all, I apologise for bringing disgrace to your name. I love you unconditionally from the bottom of my heart. To my mum, I pray you stay strong. To my dad; he always said God will not give me a load that is too heavy to carry. But the last three years have been the heaviest moments of my life.
“I have been struggling with my mental health for some time now and my close friends and some members of my family know I tried to commit suicide last year, and I failed. I started getting better with some self therapy.
“But honestly, right now, this whole situation reiterates why I don’t need to be here. If there is one thing I am proud of, personally, I have always been direct even when it’s uncomfortable. If I did anyone wrong and I found out, I apologised immediately and I tried to sort things out.
“Personally, I don’t like drama or stress. I have also tried to help as many people as I can in my short time here. But I am not perfect and I’m sure nobody is. Till my death, which is today, I still maintain that I don’t know how or the person who said I sexually harassed her or harassed her after she blocked me or who I wronged.
“To the girl who posted the list, thank you. Like I told you Nani, I can’t shoot the messenger. But your attitude towards or to work towards clearing up accusations, was piss-poor. You denied me the opportunity to clear my name and you refused to tell me exactly what I did that was harassment even after I provided proof that I didn’t harass this person. I reached out to them to apologise; only three text messages. And I never in anyway harassed this person. I never harassed them.”
Izu said he hoped his case would open up conversations on “false accusations, sexual misconduct, sexual abuse, sexual harassment”.
He noted that the society also needed to do better in handling the issues.
“When you see injustice, please speak up. Some people who felt I was unjustly accused, reached out to me. But they were scared to speak up because they did not want to be attacked or associated with the whole drama that this turned out to be. In your fight to become the voice of equality, do not silence others. Understand what a safe space is first, before you claim to create it.
“To everyone who reached out and tried to hear my side of the story, to everyone who supported me, thank you; it wasn’t in vain. I just don’t have much to live for. If you’re reading this, I most likely would have been gone,” he added.